It's nice to be here. Thank the Lord for parents. And parents homes which offer not only free food, but free internet as well. :) And free laundry.
Unfortunately I wish I had better news to report. Alas, I do not. My happy little store that just opened has just closed this week. The decision was made on Sunday and the closeout sale has ended today. We're officially out of business. We recently discovered that our store had a serious mold problem in the basement and it has been making me very, very ill. In that regard, it is good to be away. I feel healthier. It saddens my heart on so many levels. I wish I could verbally explain it. Most of all, I have NO IDEA what I'm going to do next. I keep assuming I know what God's plan is for my life. When this opportunity was opened to me I was sure this was it. I loved doing what I do. Every aspect of it. It held so many opportunities. Just another reminder that He has a plan for me, and it is not my own. I'm so thankful for that, though. His plan for me is far better than anything I could ever dream for myself.
I started a new Bible study at my church two weeks ago, Beth Moore's Believing God. When we started she asked if there was anything in our life too big for us to handle. I thoughtfully scoured over my life. There wasn't. And maybe that was the problem. I was living a perfectly happy little life and relying completely on myself. For several weeks now (before trouble in paradise) I have been praying, "Lord, help me to be this joyous and this thankful when life isn't going how I want it, not just when it's happy and planned." Well, he sure answers prayers. I'm thankful for the opportunity for this "trial" of complete uncertainty in my life. I'm also so thankful I am in such an applicable study right now. He has been my Rock always, but especially the last few days. He is Jehovah Shalom. I have a surreal and inexplicable peace even when I have not even the slightest clue how to put one foot in front of the other right now.
Anyway, thanks for listening. I am believing God. He is who he says he is, and he says he is my provider and my ever present help in trouble.
Any one have any job openings? :)
P.S. Seriously all I keep thinking is Disneyland. I want to go so bad. I think I would feel happier in the happiest place on earth. Makes sense, right? I. want. to. be. in. Disneyland.!