{Times are a changin'}

Hello world, it's been so long! I'm back, and as always, I'm hoping for more consistancy this time. I've been feeling lately, though, that my blog isn't a good representation for what I want it to be. So if things start to look a bit different, that's why. :)

{Change of Plans}

So remember when I said I was planning on starting school in January for interior design to become a prop stylist? Well... things have changed a little. :) I was going to wait to tell you, becuase in no way are these plans final. But I've just been too excited to keep this all to myself! My plans are still pretty much the same, but the school is definitely different. I found my dream school... in Paris! It's called the Paris-American Acedemy. It is a college of Fashion and Interior Design. The classes are in English but suplimented with a few French classes.

My plan is to attend the summer workshop for a month and see how I do. If I love it and don't feel too homesick, I'll send in the rest of my application, come home for a month and then go back. For three years!

I'm beyond excited and scared to death at the same time. I'm trying not to get my hope too high, though. This may not come to fruition. But right now I feel that that is where the Lord is drawing me... so I'm going to follow it!

My dream plan? Live in Paris. Have my family visit over winter to spend Christmas in Paris with me. I would stay home for the summers to just travel. I just want to go. Go all over Europe during the summer months. Then I will meet an amazing and handsome man there. We will have a French countryside with just our families and dearest friends. He'll be super rich, too, that way we can afford to fly everyone over there. :) Sound like a good plan?

{More News}

I'm not sure why I can't seem to bring you guys any good news lately! But as I write to you now I'm sitting in a hospital bed. I went to the emergency room on Friday night, got admitted to ICU in the morning. I am not longer in the ICU, but am still here. But the doctors have just started writing my discharge papers! I'm so happy to be going home. The last 3 weeks in my life have been the hardest ever, but things are going to get better. Thank you to everyone who has been keeping me in their prayers regarding finding a job, as well as those who knew about me being in the hospital. It means so much to me.

There's no place like home.

 

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P.S. The good news: I'm getting internet at my apartment very very soon. You know what that means! Regular blogging!

{News}

Hello World,

It's nice to be here. Thank the Lord for parents. And parents homes which offer not only free food, but free internet as well. :) And free laundry.

Unfortunately I wish I had better news to report. Alas, I do not. My happy little store that just opened has just closed this week. The decision was made on Sunday and the closeout sale has ended today. We're officially out of business. We recently discovered that our store had a serious mold problem in the basement and it has been making me very, very ill. In that regard, it is good to be away. I feel healthier. It saddens my heart on so many levels. I wish I could verbally explain it. Most of all, I have NO IDEA what I'm going to do next. I keep assuming I know what God's plan is for my life. When this opportunity was opened to me I was sure this was it. I loved doing what I do. Every aspect of it. It held so many opportunities. Just another reminder that He has a plan for me, and it is not my own. I'm so thankful for that, though. His plan for me is far better than anything I could ever dream for myself.

I started a new Bible study at my church two weeks ago, Beth Moore's Believing God. When we started she asked if there was anything in our life too big for us to handle. I thoughtfully scoured over my life. There wasn't. And maybe that was the problem. I was living a perfectly happy little life and relying completely on myself. For several weeks now (before trouble in paradise) I have been praying, "Lord, help me to be this joyous and this thankful when life isn't going how I want it, not just when it's happy and planned." Well, he sure answers prayers. I'm thankful for the opportunity for this "trial" of complete uncertainty in my life. I'm also so thankful I am in such an applicable study right now. He has been my Rock always, but especially the last few days. He is Jehovah Shalom. I have a surreal and inexplicable peace even when I have not even the slightest clue how to put one foot in front of the other right now.

Anyway, thanks for listening. I am believing God. He is who he says he is, and he says he is my provider and my ever present help in trouble.

Any one have any job openings? :)

P.S. Seriously all I keep thinking is Disneyland. I want to go so bad. I think I would feel happier in the happiest place on earth. Makes sense, right?  I. want. to. be. in. Disneyland.!